Daddy's Girl

While I was in the hospital, Molly and TR got to spend a lot of time together. He was there to put her to bed at night, and he was there with her most of the day. It was nice for both of them to get to spend a little more time together.  She is such a daddy's girl.


These are two of my all time favorite pictures. You can really see how much she loves him, and he really really loves her too. I love them both so much! My family is my whole world!


While there are days that I wish that she loved me as much as she loves him (I'm sure she does, but she definitely prefers him unless it's bed time or she's hurt), I'm so glad that they already have such a strong relationship. A relationship with your Daddy is so important for little girls.

Saturday, April 06, 2013

Hospital Stay

While I was in the hospital, Malcolm was in the NICU with an IV in his umbilical chord, and getting test after test performed so they could try and see what was going on with his spots.

TR stayed with Molly most of the time, since Malcolm was in the NICU and Molly needed some adjustment. She was wasn't sure what to think of me while I was in the hospital when they would come to visit. She didn't want to sit on my lap, or cuddle me, or really even talk to me.


I'm not ashamed to admit that my hospital stay was very lonely. I didn't have many visitors because the baby wasn't there. My mom came a couple of times, my in-laws came a few times, and Tim and his family came. A lot of people sent me texts throughout the day to see how our buddy was doing, to see if there were any updates, but most of my time was spent alone. I spent as much time up in the NICU as I could, and when I wasn't there I was sleeping in my room. The two days in the hospital were long, hard days, but I believe the walk to and from the NICU several times a day helped me heal as well. I felt practically back to my old self by the time I left the hospital, which was a real blessing. When Molly was born I was so sore for almost 5 weeks, and it was miserable. This time I bounced back much faster.


Since they weren't sure what exactly was wrong with Malcolm or why he had spots he was in an isolation room at the very back of the NICU. It was nice to have a room all to myself with him. I always felt strange walking through the NICU and seeing all these little tiny preemie babies and getting back to my 9 pound boy! He looked like a monster in there!


While Malcolm was in the NICU Sarah and Johnny came to visit. Sarah was on my list of people who could go see him, and Johnny came to help TR give him a blessing. The blessing was beautiful, and I knew he was going to be just fine. It was so nice to have other people there and to show him off to someone other than in pictures. 


Grammy was also on the approved list to go see him in the NICU. She was there every day he was in there and got to feed him a few times. It was so comforting to know when I was home taking care of the rest of my family that someone I knew and loved was taking care of my baby. 

I love newborn baby yawns!


When I got home TR made me a "Utah Valley Home Care" whiteboard like the ones they had in the hospital noting that he was the nurse and Molly was the assistant nurse. It was so nice to have such a supportive husband when I was having such a hard time with not having my whole family under the same roof. There were many times where I left him and Molly to fend for themselves for a few hours while I went to feed Malcolm. I'm also so thankful for family and friends that were so supportive and came to stay with Molly after bed time, or took her for a few hours so both TR and I could go to the hospital, or so we could take a nap.


I was home for two full days before we were able to bring Malcolm home. While it was very hard for me to leave my baby, and really what felt like a piece of my heart, at the hospital, I think it was a blessing as well. Molly was VERY clingy once I got home. She didn't want me to leave her sight, and even took naps in my bed with me the very first day. She was mostly adjusted to me being home from being gone for two days by the time we brought Malcolm home. I think that helped her adjust to him much better.


Thursday, April 04, 2013

Playing with Grammy

While Mommy was in the hospital, Molly got to spend a lot of time with Daddy. I think that was really good for her. She also got to spend some time with Grandma, and Grammy so Daddy could spend some time with me and Malcolm in the hospital.

One day while she was playing with Grammy, she got to go to the park for lunch and play with the Mater car at Grammy's house.

Tired Girl


LOVE That smile!


Zoom Zoom!

I'm so grateful that we live close to family that was able to take care of my little girl while I could not. It was nice to have some time with just me and TR as well. We got to spend some time with Malcolm in the NICU, and just some time together in the hospital.

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

Malcolm Ernest Grimm

FB post Apr 2: Malcolm Ernest Grimm is here! He was born at 3:32pm weighing in at 9 lbs 3oz and 20" long. Mommy is doing very well. Baby gets to spend some time in the NICU due to a rash they're concerned about, but otherwise he's a healthy, chubby, cute cute boy!


This is it! The post you've all been waiting for! The Birth Story!

We had gone to the doctor on Monday morning. Dr. Grover was out of town, so we had seen Dr. Glenn. The perinatologist had said that since the baby was measuring two weeks early she hadn't wanted me to go past the 39 week mark. Dr. Glenn was surprised when I said that I had wanted to be induced while Dr. Grover was out of town. I was ready for this baby, and at 39 weeks I didn't want to wait anymore. He was skeptical, and wanted to talk to the perinatologist before agreeing to the induction, so he sent us on our way, not knowing if we would be having a baby the next day or not, telling us that they would call and let us know. We went about our day, taking naps, packing bags, getting everything ready just in case they wanted us to go in for the induction. 

We had decided that we were only going to tell Sarah whether or not the induction was getting scheduled, because she was going to take Molly for us. Everyone else would find out once the baby was here. In the early afternoon, the doctor's office called us and said that we were scheduled for an induction, gave us some quick instructions, and told us the hospital would call and let us know what time they wanted us to be there. About an hour later, they called and said we had a 6:00 am appointment and gave us some further instructions. We started getting excited to meet our little boy. 


Since the appointment was so early, Molly was going to spend the night at Sarah's house. We took her there right before her normal bed time, dressed in jammies and ready for bed. She didn't fall asleep for hours. We left at almost midnight and Sarah was still sitting in the girl's room with her, trying to get her to fall asleep. I hadn't ever left my baby overnight, and leaving this time was especially hard. I knew I wouldn't be able to put her to bed for at least two more nights, and I really struggled with that. Not to mention when I did come back home I would have a new baby to take care of and I wasn't sure how well she would adjust. I finally kissed my baby goodbye, and left.

We grabbed some food on our way home and tried to go to sleep. I didn't sleep much these days anyway, but even through my exhaustion, going to bed KNOWING I was going to be having a baby the next day made it almost impossible to sleep. After the lights were off and I was situated in my recliner that I had been sleeping in for about two months TR and I talked about how things were going to change. We went over the plan for the days I was in the hospital again, and just other little things in general. I finally fell asleep around 1:30 with my alarm set to go off at 5. I slept pretty soundly once I was able to go to sleep. Once my alarm went off (and I hit snooze a couple of times), I jumped in the shower, double checked my hospital bag, and made sure TR was awake. At 5:45 we were off to the hospital. 


We were right on time for our appointment, and we filled out paperwork quickly and got admitted and all hooked up to IVs and such. They started the Pitocin around 7:00 and we were on our way. At this point I was dilated almost to a 3. We had the BEST nurses. Our Labor and Delivery nurse was named Melanie, and there was an intern from UVU there named Sean. They were both there through my whole labor which was really nice. It was nice not having to switch between nurses. With Molly we saw three different nurse shifts. I loved having the same nurse the whole time. 

Once the pitocin really started working I was kind of hating life. I have a really really low pain tolerance, and the contractions were pretty much making me want to cry. I thought I had to be dilated to a 4 in order to get my epidural, however Melanie came in after I had been breathing through contractions for about 25 minutes and told me that since I was getting induced I could have my epidural any time I wanted. Yes! Now please! I had to wait another 15-20 minutes for Dr. Lind to come because he had done an epidural for a C-Section, and had to stay until she delivered the baby. I got my epidural around 10:00 and it was all smooth sailing after that. Once the epidural was in, Dr. Glenn came and broke my water. Then they put the internal monitors on the baby, and I was more free. I slept for a few hours between getting checked and checking on the baby. 

It took until about noon to get to a 5. Once I was to a 5 though I dilated pretty quickly. Around 2:00 the baby's heart rate would drop every so often with a contraction just like Molly's did, so they watched that pretty closely. Around 3:00 the nurse checked me and said I was about a 9.5, but that we just needed to get the baby out cause he wasn't tolerating the hard contractions very well. Dr. Glenn came and checked me and said I was complete and he was ready for me to push. The baby was in a posterior position, so he was going to use the vacuum to turn him while I pushed. I pushed once and his head and shoulder came out. Dr. Glenn said he didn't even really need to use the vacuum cause I'm such a good pusher (I know, I know, hold the applause), but it helped him turn the baby the right way anyway. One more push and our boy was out! He was crying and he sounded just like Molly did. They held him up and I tried to take him, but the chord wasn't quite long enough. They cut the chord and put him right on me.

When I first got handed Molly, I didn't recognize her. I didn't recognize her until after she had been bathed. Malcolm I recognized right away. He looked just like the baby I had dreamed about, and I instantly felt my heart swell almost to bursting. They took him to get weighed and cleaned up. As they were cleaning him he started getting little spots all over his body. They called them petechia, or little broken capillaries. Because they didn't know what they were from or if they were something contagious, they took him to the NICU to get a general antibiotic, antiviral, run a bunch of tests and to keep an eye on him.

The stink eye 

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

Easter Bunny

This Easter TR had to work all day at Sundance. We were very sad that he wouldn't get to spend the day with us, but the night before he made a Easter Bunny centerpiece to go with my family's Easter dinner.

He's got mad skills

I love Easter. In the movie The Rise of the Guardians the Easter Bunny says that Easter is about Hope. I really love this. Every spring I look forward to Easter. The warmer days give make me happy. There's a sense of renewal that comes with spring. I feel like all is good and right for at least a little while during spring. This year I had an especially strong sense of hope. Hope for my future, hope for my children, hope that I'll be a good mother to them. Spring to me has always been the baby season. It will still always be the baby season. We found out we were pregnant with Molly in the spring, right before Easter. This year, we're expecting a baby (hopefully on Tuesday!). There's something so hopeful and innocent about a baby. Everything is new. Everything is seen through new and exciting eyes. Faith is renewed. The hope of the world is restored.

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Stay-At-Home-Mom and Nutella Sandwiches

I decided at the beginning of this week that I was very done working with customers and I was very done waking up at 5:45 to go to work every day, so I decided to take my maternity leave a week before baby was supposed to get here and spend some quality time with Molly before her whole world changed. We had a lot of doctor's appointments, took a lot of lovely naps, and made a lot of fantastic messes!



Maybe it was just because I wasn't home with her all the time, but it seemed like this baby needed a bath after every meal. I really love the series of Nutella tubby shots




Friday, March 29, 2013

Thank you for the Music

My Molly dolly is very musically inclined. She has loved music ever since she was very very young. When she was very sick her first 6 weeks of life music could always soothe her. Now, in church, her favorite parts are the hymns. She loves to flip through the hymnal, all the while singing "E-I-E-I-O" in tune with the hymn we are singing.

Any time the piano is out at our house, that's where you can find her most often. She loves to push the buttons and find the different songs. She has even figured out how to turn it on and all the way up, much to Mommy and Daddy's dismay.


I love our little musical girl!

Friday, March 22, 2013

Goodness Girl! You huge!

These Pictures were taken just days apart, both about a week and a half before I had Malcolm. I feel like I was much bigger throughout my pregnancy with him, but even the difference of two days, I feel like I grew extra huge!

Huge

GINORMOUS!

Baby Shower!

Lucky for me, I have the greatest family ever! Days after we found out about our baby being a boy, I was thrown a baby shower! We were going to go to lunch anyway, just as a girls day out kind of thing because I was having a baby and didn't really need anything since I already had everything girl. All of a sudden I needed EVERYTHING, and only had a month to get ready. My friends and family really pulled through for me and I had more than enough for our little Malcolm when he came.





I love the monkey bum!



I also got a really nice double stroller that fit the carseat on the back, and Molly in the front. Eventually it'll turn into a sit n' stand type stroller, and I LOVE IT! It's a beast of a stroller, but I love every bit of it. I had told Sarah that I wanted one for my birthday since I was going to have two babies 15 months apart, and Molly didn't show any signs of wanting to walk at all. It would be nice to have one even if she did decide she wanted to walk. Then I told her that I was thinking we were going to get one with our tax return this year. We had already gotten our crib for the new baby and a stroller seemed like the next logical purchase. Little did I know that Sarah had been very sneaky and collaborated with my friends and family to get me the exact stroller I was looking at. I had even shown this stroller to Andrea after the fact, and Andrea was super sneaky about it too. Sarah was very adamant that I wait until after my shower to see what I got, that way if I got gift cards or something like that, then I wouldn't have to foot the bill of a big purchase like that on my own. She made a good point, and I decided to wait. I was SO surprised when she brought it to my shower! And she'd had it for MONTHS before I had even told her I was considering buying one, and I had no idea! Sneaky sneaky! 

Saturday, March 09, 2013

Surprise?!

35 weeks!
FB Post Mar 06:  This baby just LOVES to surprise us! First: Surprise! You're pregnant! Second: Surprise! I'm a BOY! 35 weeks and four ultrasounds later the doc showed us all our Malcolm's parts to assure us that we'll be welcoming a baby boy in 2-4 weeks. Yup...still in shock.



 At 35 weeks we had already had 4 ultrasounds, and at each one the tech assured us that we were having a girl. We were so excited about our little Tali baby, and I was 100% ready for her. All the clothes had been washed and put away, all the bedding was ready, the carseat had been washed, blankets, the whole nine yards. I was really proud of myself because I still had four weeks left and I was ready so I could just relax for the last month.

We had so many ultrasounds because the technician couldn't see the baby's heart very well. Their equipment was a bit older, and they couldn't see all four chambers. They also thought the baby was measuring two weeks big. My doctor, to be on the safe side, sent me to the Perinatologist to check on the heart again, as well as get a more accurate reading on the baby's size. Off we went.

At the ultrasound in the perinatologist, which was located in the hospital itself, we saw the most clear picture of our baby that we had the whole pregnancy. It was fun to see actual hair on our baby's head! During the ultrasound, we were joking with the tech. We were saying that we wanted to check and make sure the baby was "still a girl" and that she didn't have wings or horns or any other sort of mutation. Secretly TR thought that would be cool though. Through the ultrasound, the tech kept looking at one area, then back to measuring, and back to that same area, then back to measuring something different. Finally, after she got all her measurements, she went back to this same area she had been checking out before. In a very shaky voice she said "Um...I know we were joking about this before..." TR's first thought was that the baby actually did have horns! She then finished with "But I'm pretty sure you are having a boy!" We just laughed. What else were we supposed to do? She then pointed out what she had been looking at, and printed us a picture of our little boy's parts and assured us that she wouldn't have said anything if she wasn't sure. She then left to let the perinatologist know that we were ready for her.

While we were waiting, we discussed what we were going to do if it actually was a boy, and we just ended up laughing until we cried. Not sad tears, just surprised tears. Lucky for us, we already had a name picked out for both a boy and a girl, so we didn't have to worry about that at all. When the perinatologist came in she was talking all about out little boy. He's measuring this, he's looking good, he's due when? I don't think she realized that we had literally JUST found out it was a boy. TR asked her to double check the boy thing, just to be sure. This time she got an angle that there was no mistaking it. There was a little penis, testicles, and a scrotum. With a laugh, she declared "Last I checked my anatomy book, girls don't have those!"

Once we got done with the ultrasound and chatting with the perinatologist, we took our shaky, giggly selves out into the hall, clutching our "It's a boy!" pictures, and called our family. They all thought it was a big practical joke and we were going to be calling them back later on and telling them that we were kidding. My mom couldn't get over it. She thought it was a joke for days. Tim and Misty thought it was hilarious. And here I was, 4 weeks to go until we met our little boy, with no boy clothes, no boy blankets, nothing boy. What an adventure!


Wednesday, March 06, 2013